Surrender? Who, Me?
Surrender is a big word. A word with a lot of weight. I use is sparingly - when I use it at all - with clients because it IS a big word. I believe it conjures up so many different ideas and images: yield, give in, submit, quit, succumb, crumble. These are a few of the definitions noted in the dictionary. And the original meanings, from the Old French words sur and rendre were to give up or deliver over.
I also believe that in our culture there is an idea that surrender means to give up everything. As in a huge surrender of ALL that we are and ALL that we have. I quit! I crumble.
But what I have learned about surrender is that it does not have to be giving up everything...quitting or crumbling. For so long I was afraid to 'surrender' for those reasons. NO my insides shouted. NO!
Maybe it is age that has helped me temper my idea of surrender and what it means to me. I know now that for me surrender has gone from meaning ALL to maybe the tiniest sliver of yielding. Taking a few minutes sometimes - even when there are things I could be doing - to walk outside and smell the air. Deciding to take a nap instead of doing my taxes. Taking some extra time in an epsom salt bath to just be. Asking people for time to consider something - a pause - so I can slow down and take in what is being said or done. Telling people "thank you for asking, but NO, I won't be able to".... Taking more time to enjoy my little abode and the precious things I have kept after many years of having houses and bigger spaces.
Surrender...yielding to the softness inside me. Surrender to my truth: I am in im-perfect human Be-ing! Im-perfect. Letting that be my truth.
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Or being im-perfect! Or BE-ing!