Nelson, British Columbia, Wednesday, July 10th, 2019. Two-week Birth Process Intensive with a well-known and revered early trauma therapist, Myrna Martin.
As day two unfolded in the circle we talked about the practicalities of this work. The principles for safety in creating a healthy ‘womb surround’. The ‘form’ of the sessions, the small groups and larger group formations.
I intuited last summer that I wanted to work with Myrna in healing some preconception and womb trauma I had experienced. My intuition is good when I listen!
So being here, following my intuition to be here on Myrna’s land, working with her and her trusted supporters felt right. Is feeling right.
As I sat this morning, third day in, I wondered what am I going to work on? Where is the potency in my body of knowing: what is my intention? Where or what will best serve me in healing my woundedness and what will I learn to take home to work with clients?
As I pondered this I kept coming to the word Health. Creating, opening and remembering my own health: the health of my system, the health that is, and always has been there, that I forget.
Pondering different aspects of my journey: the confusion of my conception with both my parents being married to other people; the trauma I experienced when my Mother learned that my Father had not gotten divorced - as I imagine he said he would - and that at five months gestation, her world crumbled.
As I sat with all of the energy of HEALTH, I realized my work here is not huge, not maybe dramatic or even very dynamic, but rather my work here this two weeks is be. To do or experience each day, several times a day, my somatic experience. What am I sensing in my body? Where can I feel safe? What does ‘safe’ feel like? Do I feel or experience that safe feeling with others? In a group? At breakfast? Joining others?
This new information has taken me from wondering what I will work on to a very nice feeling of just allowing. Allowing my body to inform me. Allowing my entire energetic being to….well, just allowing my entire energetic body to do nothing.
What a concept. I will let you know how it goes.
And, if you are reading this, what do you intuit that you most need for the Health of your lovely system?