I have been here in Nelson, BC for one week at an intensive birth process experiential workshop. I have one more week of deep and intensive body exploration of attachment. Knowing the felt sense we all have of the many layers of attachment. From our 'coming in' to conception, our development as an egg or sperm, implantation, womb experience and after.
I have, for many years, known, at a 'thinking level' how important each precious step is. And this last week I have begun to experience at a deep body level, how important it is to feel welcomed, to know that we are going to be received into a family that really wants us. And will welcome and support us.
And yet I know, from personal experience, that there are so many ways this process of 'coming in' can go wrong. Not feel 'right'. Not feel authentic or perhaps almost dangerous.
From this first level of work I am more curious than ever about my clients' beliefs, experiences, and that felt sense of trauma. And how deeply the very earliest messages live in us. Permeate our very bones and cells.
I am curious. And maybe you will be, too! Call me if any of this resonates with you: 360-432-1236. I can work with you in person or online.
Pictures from Nelson, BC below.
Nelson, British Columbia, Wednesday, July 10th, 2019. Two-week Birth Process Intensive with a well-known and revered early trauma therapist, Myrna Martin.
As day two unfolded in the circle we talked about the practicalities of this work. The principles for safety in creating a healthy ‘womb surround’. The ‘form’ of the sessions, the small groups and larger group formations.
I intuited last summer that I wanted to work with Myrna in healing some preconception and womb trauma I had experienced. My intuition is good when I listen!
So being here, following my intuition to be here on Myrna’s land, working with her and her trusted supporters felt right. Is feeling right.
As I sat this morning, third day in, I wondered what am I going to work on? Where is the potency in my body of knowing: what is my intention? Where or what will best serve me in healing my woundedness and what will I learn to take home to work with clients?
As I pondered this I kept coming to the word Health. Creating, opening and remembering my own health: the health of my system, the health that is, and always has been there, that I forget.
Pondering different aspects of my journey: the confusion of my conception with both my parents being married to other people; the trauma I experienced when my Mother learned that my Father had not gotten divorced - as I imagine he said he would - and that at five months gestation, her world crumbled.
As I sat with all of the energy of HEALTH, I realized my work here is not huge, not maybe dramatic or even very dynamic, but rather my work here this two weeks is be. To do or experience each day, several times a day, my somatic experience. What am I sensing in my body? Where can I feel safe? What does ‘safe’ feel like? Do I feel or experience that safe feeling with others? In a group? At breakfast? Joining others?
This new information has taken me from wondering what I will work on to a very nice feeling of just allowing. Allowing my body to inform me. Allowing my entire energetic being to….well, just allowing my entire energetic body to do nothing.
What a concept. I will let you know how it goes.
And, if you are reading this, what do you intuit that you most need for the Health of your lovely system?
I am in Nelson, BC, attending a two-week intensive birth process workshop. For myself: for healing and transforming any early imprints of my 'odd' conception and pre-birth experience, AND, learning how any pieces of this 'work' can help my clients. How any piece of my healing and self-regulation can help my clients individually or in groups I facilitate!
Being very sensitive to 'place' and the energy of 'place' has thrown me off a bit as I took a two-day meander to Nelson from Olympia, Wa, and because I have never been to this part of Canada.
Yesterday we began. With eye exercises to help regulate the poly-vagal system, with calm, reassuring overviews on creating a safe 'surround', helping us get clear about what we need for ourselves and - a little harder - what we can ask for. Hmmm. Ask for. I am working on that one.
To orient myself I have been taking pictures. Maybe as you look at these pictures you can imagine breathing a little more deeply, settling into the chair/couch/bed a little more deeply, softening your face, your shoulders...your entire body down to your toes. Feel the cool Kootenai air in the evening, the warmth of the sun during the day. The progression of the sun from one side of the valley, over the mountains, to the other side.
I will follow up. I wish you calm today. Soft breathing. Soft body. Kind and gentle self-compassion.
I am a catalyst for others, helping people continue, over their entire life span - preconception, conception, in the womb and after - to grow, learn, heal so that each person can live their deepest longings. This is my passion.
Adventurer, lover of beauty, seeking clarity, harmony & balance. Compassionate. Just. Fair. Grateful. Hugely grateful.